i know i should have moved, but the ease of just typing some random thoughts here trumps using the new site.

this post shall be my last correspondence before i head off for some long field camp in tekong.

i know this sounds really melodramatic, perhaps due to my sense of fear at whats to come, and maybe even more pertinent,

due to my just completion of The Pacific on HBO.

 

war sucks, how it erodes thy soul, and i believe that is indeed a resounding message which tom hanks and co. sought to push through the series.

maybe it is this realization, that pushes us to avoid war at all costs.

and how ironic, to avoid war by preparing well for it, deterrance so they call.

weird ways of the world.

 

wells, lets hope these 10 days go by quickly.. 

at least i know i got a mud pie waiting for me tomorrow for my birthday, literally.

i am so upset and pissed that i have only 23 hours out of tekong, and half of that time is spent sleeping, whilst the other quarter is spent on doing a 1000 word reflection on some shitting episode.
it is just agitating and pissing to see people having the freedom to go out as and when they desire,
even just taking a stroll or swim.
whilst i got to be back at tekong in another 2 hours.

the only thing i am thankful for,
is the relatively easier life in army left for us.
having cleared field test, and sit test,
most that awaits us should be relatively easier.

oh wells,
what can i do now, but look forward to the next bookout?

feels good to be home.
miss my bed, my shower, my room, the freedom to do anything, anytime.
it just felt so surreal, just taking that ferry out, stepping onto mainland singapore..
in fact, the night before, we were all talking and wondering if it was all a dream,
and that we would wake up and realise that it is still day 1.
time really slows down so much in tekong.

wells, thank God for this break,
allows me some time to relax, to rest my swollen ankle,
which still hurts btw.
thank God that there was no serious bone or muscular tear or injury...

tekong was alright,
the heat was unbearable, the trainings really tiring.. 'dragon pt'
and the time passed so slowly.
the commanders have been nice thusfar, though i doubt this would last for long,
as sgt ck said: 'be prepared for lots of GROUNDWORK next week', i guess we should get the idea already..
oh wells, i realised being positive really alleviates the misery,
and perhaps that is the best cure, beats any visit to the MO.

ok its CNY again,
gonna enjoy it as much as possible,
considering i fell ill last year, and was confined at home..
so to everyone out there,
新年快乐，事事顺利，身体健康，万事如意