To back away from everything, everyone, really helps to slay those problems we have.

prehaps sometimes our greatest enemy is not the world, but ourselves, and in the presence of everyone, the inner self mutates and devours us.

so i guess sometimes, retreat is the best assault.

hopefully nirvana is near, i can smell it, but is this a temporary whiff or something ephemeral, a reflection of the real substance beneath. i hope its the latter.

 

Overthinking complicates matters, screws up your heart.

'i can (not) think, wait and fast'

ok i will revive this blog on the eve of my revival mission.

yes, its time to break free from samsara, find my river and enter nirvana.
when that is achieved, all will cease to exist, no pain, no misery, just pure absolut joy.
that my fellow child-people, is an end to itself, a mission, a goal, a life.

with this determination, i shall embark on a quest, both a physical and a metaphysical one, to trek through the forests and mountains of Taiwank, in search for the ever elusive Vasudeva.
to all my fellow Govindas, may we find this emotional state of peace, as the river continues to flow, so too will our miseries, our joys, our enemies, our friends. we cannot change these exogenous factors, we can only change whats inside, and that my fellow Govindas, will only be done when we attain Nirvana.

OMMM

V.B. is bitter, it sucks.

and so i sit facing my blank computer screen, knowing deep down that the amount of work yet to be completed stood in total contrast to the blankness of the screen. a momentary visual respite could also instill within a slight tranquility, or perhaps those cynics out there would just point out blatantly that i am living in a disillusioned world.

the mammoth task lying ahead, EE. yes, laugh all you want, you sniggering cynics..
i lie reeling from the consequences of the series of missteps i have taken, just when i thought that the holidays would provide a welcome respite for me to complete my ee, the work load suddenly 'tsunami-ed', with Geog Ia, camps, church conferences and what nots. and not to forget, the behemoth common tests waiting to be slain, or be slayed by. sigh.

i guess, i have to prioritise, to put ee first and the rest behind, and just accept my fate and be prepared for the slaying by the common tests. oh wells, at least i know deep down, that after this slaying, i shall return and destroy the real ib exams, with my ee and what nots put out of the way of course. or maybe not?

i really need that extra one week..
can someone from our school just contract swine flu?
or to put it in a nicer way, 'take it for the team'